shushu aakta kobitar janya

raat barotay aakta kobita dhokbaar cheshta korchilo aak raash baajir sathe bhindeshi ekchilte balconyr agol thele. somoy jadio thamte janena-tai chote. aak srote dubaar snan korina keu, shroter ki prayojan amar snan e? tao bhindeshi tarar kachtheke shatek aloborsher bhitar diye asha aak raamdhonu kobita- jaar bhitar gahin abagahon- jaar bhitar raamdhonur parat parat rongin vinnata, jaar bhitar kayheen premer angikaar- temon aakta kobita-jagiye rekhechilo aneker motoi amar cholti bacharer raat barota. koto pratikhate emon aakta kobita barshita hoy bandhya matir jobane? kobitar janya apekhha korte pari sarajiban?

harano calculator,

fire pele kaal raat barotaar pore,

jeta, bheshe giyechilo alokananda jale.

kobir hridoy,tomar hisheb machiene,

dubechilo bujhi gohan,gabhir tale.

dubanta din,dubanta raat khan,

moner gobhire kothao aandhar nei.

nei shimarekha,barikade,anibaar.

shahajei chole kotha bola aakchaar,

explanation bhashte dubte ekhane abantar.

asukh koreche jirnagrasta tumi,

aakgaal dari,fola fola chokh mukh,

badha holo na to ,dhukte aamar ghore!

prithibita tabe khanda khanda,

sobtai tabe ashole bahirmukh.

bohirmukher prabesh swapne mana,-

aamar sagor koyek fathom niche,-

khujte nemechi probal tomar sathe,

shamudra tumi,hate tule dao nije.

sekane gabhir bairere shara nei,

alo ache,setashamudrik aak alo,

koto sahojei kothara ashe o jay,

niruttarer pahar dingiye kalo.

raat shesh hole matir prithibi pore-

khonjakhnji chole harano calculator,-

niruttarer pahar banao tumi,

bhule jao sei somuddurer jiban-

"bhulbhal jato swapno,eshob bhabo,"

mukhe bole dao "prediction ke bholo"

nijeke nijei bhango goro baar baar.

tomar hishebi uran,uttaran-

aamar uthone nona bali somachaar.

monu-the bird monur golpa amar janya noy, monu aar ami aak paratei thaki, tobuo monuke joriye andhakaar, ami ure jai alo-dana makha-makhi. aamar sokal lolita-bhairabe, stereophonic dambha prachurjer, aamar sokal kelloger cornflakes, kritadashatya chapar madhyamer. bhor sare chare monur sokal shuru, surja ghorar dekh bhal taar kaaj. sneha-tuli diye tader keshar guli, beni,asahakolay pore othe raajsaaj. monu uthe ashe garta dhakna thele, monu uthe ashe uporer prithibite, uthe ashe se je alor jhuli ta niye, andhakaar se,prithibite alo dite. ami thaki aar doshti tolar upor, doshlakhi kena,pubmukhi bedroom e, samne aamar sokaler home task, ki ashchrja!alo krome ashe kome. aanka mele na-dushhaha jantrana, aankibuki aar katakuti rough khata, bole jay eshe lojjita koshaghate, bhorai surer nidarun byarthata. jol to dhalchi,tobu keno hahakaar? teshta ta keno mitchena kono mote? input aar outputer jere, naamche aakta null-set baar baar! sandher pore nubja kubja dehe, biddeye-bojhai,abodh ahankaar, lift e othai thele nijeder deha, mone kori holo mritadeha satkaar. klanti katate anupom shop-moll, energy debe supeyo foler rosh, sajano royeche thore thore bilashita, arthamulya sokol ke kore bosh. klanti katche,klanti katlo bujhi, chokher samne chaya chaya ghore-ghore, alor britya bindu bindu hoye, klanti katar bhranti ghonay mor. samnei dekhi neelakash hashi heshe, daray monu je!chokhe eki tripti! sob peyeche se,sob pereche se nije- rangieyche se je surjer dipti. klanti kothao-klanti monur kothay? khachhe se dekhi holde satano muri! porane je taar chop dhora taali mara, ghoshta ronger pajamaar dora dori. ami dekhi aak bishal sobuj maath, aakpashe tar gutli pakiye ami, sada ghorapithe,monu chutochuti kore, jholmole rod eneche se ati dami. monu aar dugdha shubhra ghora, aak jhalaker aakta agun boloy, paak khete khete uthche aakash bhedi, soura barite ghotbe bujhi ba proloy. kothay monur telhin lalchul! kothay je taar khori otha haatpa! baashi thot theke apurba aak sur, miche holo sadha-dha-ni-sa-re-ga-ma-pa. klanta ami-sajhaa hoy na alo, e alor tej poray sharir mon, harachhi jeno jiboni shakti nije, balance diet,bhitamin,hormone. ami daki,monu,amake sange nao, monu bole,tumi ghora chalate ki jano? ami boli,tumi neme esho eikhane, nagal pele bosh kore nebo,jeno. aamar kothay monur attahashi, sange hashche saat ti rother ghora, eliye porchi,se pran prachurjete, jadio bhabchi ,sobtai mongora. rattire jei ghumote jachhi dekhi, aamar anka tokhono nirutaar, monu namche sei khanija bashasthane, sob proshner jene niye uttar. haate ache taar kalo aadharer tholi, bajche kothao siren tingting, monu niche gelo,taire korte alo, sara kolkata shahar loadshading.

calculator tui ki harali mago? chotto kaner dul? jhumjhumi-rangchota, holud gadaar ful? kandchish keno uthal patal kul? harali bodh hoy kalo velvet skirt,baastabe jeta binuni bandhaar chul! ore boka meye, jhinuk jhinuk mon, kurchi fuler swapna makhano chokh, rimjhim sure kandish ne mago aar, hariye felar golpa aamar son. ami hariyechi mosta aakta aakash, haralam sei sathe tarakaar sari, ora chilo sob praner bondhu aamar, saat sagorer pari dewa kandari. haralaam kichu mosta mosta gaach, jara dito jal,chaya,sneha aar pata- je patay chilo notuner chlorofil, sobe tora aaj je oxygen khonje- chutcho,chutbe edik odik britha- se chilo aamar hridayaete til til. haralam aak dhanrowa metho poth, haralap aak swapne alapi nodi, haralam jata bangama bangomi, haralaam koto titi birakta smriti. haralam sei swapna raajkumaar, din sesh howa durya godhuli eshe, bolte chailo na harano somaachar. eito sedin haralam jeno kothay, songopaner jatne rakha hisheb, poshaki naamta calculator bujhi, khunje khunje sara aatmiya porijan, ami bhabchi peta to abaar hobei- ekhoni thaakna,eshob ashfalon. harano niye to kanna korata bhul, gojamil diye anka melaash na ma, haray bolei notun khonjer dike, egiye cholche sobai,akul-kul. hariye felechi chotto amar DITHI, jaar sathe ei setutake baandhlaam, nei sei,tobu aro anekei ache,aamar harano ashrur dite daam.

akashe dilam sunil megher mala,

poralam taar kopale surja tip,

ajar,amar,shaswata,akkhoy--

je surja elo ghanta derek agge,

amader andhakaarke korte dur,

take pathalam sat ti sagar pare,

janmadiner boye niye jete sur.

batashe chorano sonajhuri deepabali,

agrimataar shit shit amejete,

pari dite chay dolbol bedhe sobe,

aaj sokaler mishti shubhra prate.

se sathe dilam aakta chotto pakhi,

danate dilam anek adar dhum,

ki naam setar,jeno,ma,baba,dada ba jethu--

paye badha taar sms ghum ghum.

se giye janabe shubha je janmodin,

se boye jachhe payesher aaghran,

se giye bolbe ekhankare kotha,

aamra sobai achi ap

kaamchut

hothat majhe majhe nijeke kemon jenok kaarmachyuta bole mone hoy. aak aakta sandhe ashe-- jakhaan tarighori abelay ghum bhenge uthe dekhi,aamar sob kaaj age bhagei ke jeno sere rekheche. samasta neel akashtake poripati kore bhaj kore aakpashe adrishya kore diye, kalo granaiter mejhete chaler guroy tara enke, gharfirti pakhider poth chiniye bari pouche diye, kishori chatim gaachtaar sharirer banke baanke,phontay phontay jaal phele-- take kaamgandhi padmini rupe sajano-- sesob kichui aamar age annya keu--. je sur ta amari prane gungunachhilo sara sokaal- seo jeno kokhan gita hoye geche--annya kono tarit gati beenar tare tare. aar thik takhani raater abachetan gahine dub dey mon. mone pore ekushi diner taatkhaniker topic-- the footstep just u missed-- andhakaar amake bicharaker ashan theke prashnaiyata kore-- aar ami ati dhire haatrai amar bahu byabahrita molin keyboard,jutsai uttar type kore othaar agei dekhi--- monitor e fute othe aamar kotha annya kolame. aamar santan noy jeneo chuye feli taake,param adore. rakta-mangsha-prem ke chute chai oor bhitar diyei. barabari ki takei bole na? mayer cheye mashir daradbeshi ? aajkaal ektu beshi beshi parishram koro porer cheler janya-- keno??? uttar pay na parthiba prashnara andhakaarer kache. aro nibirr hoy raat. chetan,adhachetan hoye abachetan e dub. param adore chop dhora aanchole mukh muchiye koler bhitar tene ney aamar ma, aar kaalo gabhir andhakarrer moto maye gungunanite ami haatte thaki mohana theke utshe-ulotpuraner poth dhore. fire jai aamar janmo muhurte-- jekhane aabar dekha hoy srishtishil tdui premer sathe. porer diner janya baanchi ami.

khanik kotha theke tor shuru holo poth chola? kotha theke tor moner gahine dub? itiuti cheye unki jhunki mara khela? andare nei piri patbaar thai. anginay tai theshatheshi,anibaar. samay takeo chabuk chalay jeno tomar amar baachbaar shankat. moner maddhaye hamla chalay smriti, samaj kimba bibek manushbaad, ki,keno, kokhan uttar khunje nite,naker opor tuli kalo chashmata examiner,lal kali niye hate anabaratai moner sange lora, mon bole ,jeno,chahidar nei sesh,tai chawa pawa bandhte chai na mote, sparsha chai na,aak til prayojan- nei ,keno,ota sahajei bhalo mete. drishti ta chole,tabuo abashya noi- bini-suti -mala gathte se kishe lage? chaichi na kono park,restorant,hall char deoaler bandhan boro sthul, uttejanar drabane amar nei kono din i priti hote pare ,eta anek chakkhu shul. hote pari boka,tabu,emon jaiga chai-- jekhane dheuera bali kore chumban,jeta mati theke anek durantar, ta bole swarga,ota jeno bi-bhishan. ashole emon aakta ambience, jekhane kothara barti bolei baad,jekhane sharir kimba angikaar sab kichu kei sahaj bahishkaar. jei khane eshe surja ahndra mele, adekha holeo anubhuta hoi mil, jekhane anka,byakaran nei kono, jekhane samasta hisheb je garmil. sei khane jabo tomar sange eka, ki bolbe eke asamajik prem? naki eta kono natun prithibi khonje- colombus er attmake nipiran?

digantarekha swapna idaning amake roj i daar koriye dey ekta diganta rekhar mukhomukhi. ghum jarano chokhe,rupoli jyotsnay bhije ami pouche jai sekhane. ashimer samne bangmoy hobar dhrishtata amar nei, tai stabdha ami nirbaak darai-- surja othar prakkale.. di---gan--ta--re-- kha--- miliye rakhe epar opar-- athaba bhinna rakhe epar theke opar ke. ekta paar jadi hoi rakta-mangsha-ami, aporta amar antarale pore thaka abahelita-- brishti bheja raat. pora-apora,bastab-kalpona,sat-asat,niti-durniti---- suniti chatujje theke sikhe ashajata bipariit;sab i daraykalpanik diganta rekhar dupashe. daray eshe lal jantra-holud jantra--- daray eshe holud alash signal-jaar kaaj thaka aar byasta thakar lal aar sabuj rang ke melano,athaba dure rakha. ekta bishal bari,dersho bacharer--manane aro beshi,hoito paanch hajarr. daray panchil hoye--- sob peyechir desh,kandhe bag duckbag,paye juta reebock,engriji thoter dogay,aar video games-- poysa felllei ja kichu pawa jai taar sandhan-- annyadike aak mutha chaal,khata na kinte para,mil-aar sabji gandha baba ma-- mile mishe aak hotei to chay sobai---tobu keno panchil othe? bench e bench efarak to thakei--simana monke ki bandha jeto kono bhougalik diganta rekhay? gaan-khela-addaykokhan jeno diganta rekhatai mohana hoto aaddin. surja otha din raater diganta-- sei diganter samne nirbaak dariye bujhi- sharir ta dariye achematir sparshe-- seta amari chena abayab abikal,kintu seta ami noi. ami bharmukta bhashchi--eparopar-- passpoart-visa nei-- ali aar ami r majhe achirei kokhon daray eshe govind -ishhan aar abak ami dekhi anayash sura murchanay periye jachhi-- border security forcer pelab sashan.

now,i can feel why is the moon so tired. she travels a lot to gift her shine, which she squzzes from her own soul, gradually she becomes lean and pale, but the world remains unaware, in fact reality is too selfish to feel anything. she performs her duty day and night, from one sphere to another. she has no day or night to enjoy, nobody asks her whether she dreams or not, but i feel ,she dreams not for her own, even through her dream she performs the duty of a mother. she creates some dreams of reality in the subconscious mind,kept in the soft,warm womb of the earth. she drenches the infertile vagina by her soft moonly touches, she finally enters into that deep unknown black hole, which created the universe successfully. like a generous mother she reigns over me, making me aware what motherhood is.

yes,i will cry, cry for the solar eclipse that i missed today, will cry for the boy who was physically punished by you because she was looking through the window from his desk,i will cry for the teacher who earned a lot without his pension, i will cry for our parents,who dreamt they will be able to see the brightest sun after all danger and torture, i will cry for my collegue who has to surrender his ethics for the sake of necessity, i will cry for you for your silent departure, and i will cry for that idiot girl who was named as muse by a poet.

ghore elo aak poshla brishti, bhijiye dite amar moner angan. tomar kache rod ki para beray? sei karanei kalam dhora baran? brishti chachhe tomar kache jete, srishti parash pabe naki sethay, pathai take?tumi ekhon ready? gathte mala shabda ebong gathay? amay borong pathao ektu rode, bhabcho keno emon aghatan, amar janya khunti-korra-beri, amar janya akul ashfalan.

the silence

muse,tumi kadbe na,
kanna amay pichal kore,,
muse tumi knapbe na,
se kampone amar patan.
spardha eto prashna koro?
prashno kora reality.
chachho ki thik,dhukte kothay,
kothay chabi khunjcho naki?
boka muse,baire bosho,
andarete noito unki.
tomar kaaj to srishtir noi,
srashtake je modhu jogay
utswarga annya name,
se thake na chapa patay
. tai bole mon kharap kora,
jealousy sob atpouure-- narisulabh--
-muse tumi nari to nou, purush to noi,
bastu holeo hote paro,
kintu tumi bhalo thako,

Jatne rakho kabya karo.

ami jakhan choto chilam,khelte jetaam megher dale,ekdin aak meghbalika,prashna korlo koutuhole,ei cheleta naam ki re tor?ami bollum fushmontar,meghbalika regei agun,mithye kotha naam ki aman hoi kokhana,ami bollam nishchoi hoi,age amar galpa shono,se bolle sunbo na ja ,sei to rani,sei toraja,sei to aaki raajar kumar pokhhiraaje,osab baje.ami bollam, tomar jannya notun kore likhbo tobe,se bollo,saati bolcho?besh tahole masta kore likhte hobe,likhei kintu amay debe--- ei porjanta porei theme jete holo,karon satti jhamjhamiye brishti elo.khola janlar madhheye diye,barandar railing er madhheye diye,moner bhitar brishtir jhimjhimani ter pelo kunal.abak kanda,takhani current tao chole elo.thamke thaka monitor tar dike ajantei chokh chole gelo.nijeke samlabar cheshta korlo.uthlo,jal khelo,kintu booker modhheye tolpaar .thik holo na kaajta.ei samai tai o roj chat kore brishtir sathe.kintu aaj nijeri kothao ekta mone holo ,eta thik hochhe na.brishti ke deoar moto taar kichu nei,karan se bibahita,se baba,ekta happy family take kendra kore abartita hoi--baba,ma,tin bacharer dodo,ebong taar bhishan adarer ekada premika aaj ardhangini,poushali.a perfect picture of happy family.se nije aak kale bohemian lifestyle lead korleo ,samparker satatai ebong gabhiratay astha rakhe.se mone kore taar sajano ei chotto ektukra gandi badhha jibane antata taar dik theke kono kalo bajragarbha megher sanchar jate na hoi,seta dekha taar ekanta kartabya.tai se hisheb koshe,mepe pa phele,controversy eriye chole.karan se taar experience diye bujheche jiban ta nikhut ekta anka,gonjamil deoar kono sujag nei,samman ,pratishtha eisab boro boro meki values gulo ashole khub dami.kintu tao----- -,